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Monthly Archives: April 2010

I hate manipulation. I hate when others are manipulated sure, but when you try to manipulate me, it infuriates me to no end. It never works. I know when someone is trying to manipulate me. It’s like i can smell it. If you have tried to manipulate me and your reading this then let me say 2 things. One if I did what you wanted me to do than guess what. 9 times out of 10 I knew what you were doing and didn’t care cause whatever it was that you wanted me to do was not that bad and I did it. If you tried and failed well than your just not that good at it and you should just stick to asking directly. Sure I have been manipulated in the past. Usually to do something I regret and have had to fix later. It makes me paranoid. So much so that now I can’t take anything at face value from 99% percent of people. Very few have my complete trust anymore. Guess I have been burned one to many times.


Yes sir the Real Housewives of New Jearsy is coming back next month! Must DVR!

I posted a link to the best scene from last season! Bwahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahah!!

So I remember saying that this would not be a weight loss blog, but to bad it’s my blog lol. So I discovered that Friday that I have lost 50 pounds since November. I seriously don’t even know how I did it. It just sorta happened. I think I’m the poster child for stress causes weight gain. I have been so not stressed the last 5 Months that i think it is just melting off! I wanna lose another 50 by September and I really think I can do it. I have this surge of confidence that is coming from Jupiter know where. It’s going be tough but I really think I can do it!

The title pretty much says it all. Go to and watch her performance from last night. Go ahead. I’ll wait. No seriously go! Ok your back. Was that not the worst thing you have ever seen? Seriously, I watched that live. That’s time I’ll never get back. And they compare her to Lady Gaga?! No! Gaga can at least sing live. Yes I know some people don’t like her cause she says things that may or may not be based in truth, but she can perform and that’s what counts. I vow that I will one day bring Ke$ha down!!

So I have said that I didn’t like the show Glee, but in a recent moment of clarity that i have had this week I really decided to give it another chance so I DVR’d it last night. Wow. I really do like this show. I wish I would have watched it from the very beginning. Damn my bitterness. Yes I said bitterness. One of the hardest things I have had to deal with sense coming out is the fact that I really don’t have a place to sing anymore. With my life not being where the church believes it should be i don’t feel it would be prudent to ask to sing in church anymore. So that leaves very few places to truly belt out a good ballad. But I miss it. Alot. For a while the only time i was truly happy was the 3 to 4 min where i got to sing a song in front of a croud. I guess that’s just part of life

I’ve been alone with you inside my mind
And in my dreams I’ve kissed your lips a thousand times
I sometimes see you pass outside my door
Hello, is it me you’re looking for?

I can see it in your eyes
I can see it in your smile
You’re all I’ve ever wanted, (and) my arms are open wide
‘Cause you know just what to say
And you know just what to do
And I want to tell you so much…

So i have decided to delete my MySpace. I hear it’s dead now anyway right? It just seems I get friend requests from promoters for clubs, or girls who want me to see their new boobjob. Gross. Everyone I know is on Facebook anyway.

Yes I know. For years i talked nothing but crap on it and called everyone who got one a sheep. Well Baa Baa Mother Fucker! I’m a sheep I know it. So I’m hoping I can get one soon cause what I didn’t know untill now is that I can update this damn Blog from it! Whoo Hoo! Papa is getting an IPhone baby!

Yes i started a Blog. I have officially moved to the dark side. I have been toying with starting a blog for a few months. i feel like the world just doesn’t give me the outlets I need to say what i need to say. So before you ask this will not be a blog about what i do in any given day. no this will not be a blog about my attempts at weight loss of my search for true love. This will be a collection of the random thoughts that fly through my head that in most cases never grace the world we live in. If that sentence just shot a chill up your spine,  then don’t worry, that just means you are still sane. I will not apologize on this blog. i will not pull punches. I will leave no one unscathed. I will take no prisoners. Consider your self warned. BWAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHcough.